Five Minute Friday — Present

Five Minute Friday
1. Write for 5 minutes flat – no editing, no over thinking, no backtracking.
2. Link back here and invite others to join in.
3. And then absolutely, no ifs, ands or buts about it, you need to visit the person who linked up before you & encourage them in their comments. Seriously. That is, like, the rule. And the fun. And the heart of this community..

Present

I am reminded today about the importance of living in the present. Soaking it all up, drinking it deep. A school mate is dealing with his 9 year old son having cancer, battling it to the teeth and holding on to every moment for dear life. I see mama’s who are learning about horrible diseases their baby’s have, learning there is no cure,  no treatment and in all reality they will be saying goodbye to the baby before he turns 1. I have a friend who grieves for the daughter she lost 5 years ago, she is missed every day, thought of every day and impacts lives even now.
And I hug my children tighter. I thank God for every moment I have with them. I cry out in prayer for these families and many others. I wonder why such sweet children, parents, families are called to walk this path. And I am reminded that none of us know when we are living our last day. We will all meet an end, for some of us it may be today, tomorrow or 50 years from now. We should all live in the present.
Each day lived full, letting little things go, making memories but most of all loving those around us. When I think about it, I think about what I want my children to remember about me if this is my last day. I think about how I want to be faithful to what God has called to do. I also think about what I’d want to remember about my children if, heaven forbid, this is their last day too. I think about the way my oldest son’s eyes light up when he laughs and how even at 10, he so wants to be a man but is still a boy who loves. I cherish my second son, the way he cares for others and his stories…his stories! And my blue eyed 3rd son, who charms with his smile and his words. I treasure in my heart the smile he seems to give at just the right moment. Then there is my spirited 4th son, such a challenge for me, but oh what a child who drinks in life. He lives the experience! And my precious gift in my 5th son. My baby born after losing two babies. He feels redemptive and healing. His countenance so happy and sweet. When I look at him, I can’t help but think “My Joy comes in the morning”.
I sear these images, these memories and their faces in my mind. Wishing I could take snapshots in my brain and rifle through them each day. I pray for God to help remind me that I need to live in the present. I need to take it all in and take each day for the gift and the moments that they are.
Be present.

5 thoughts on “Five Minute Friday — Present”

  1. As difficult as it is, I love that God has given you this perspective, because it is a sweet reminder to me as well. We SHOULD pray that God would remind us to live fully in the present.
    And 5 boys?!! Wow! I have 2 girls and 2 boys and they are an incredible blessing. I don’t want to miss this time with them! Thanks for a great post!

  2. Oh Erin! Such heavy things to deal with, friend. Praying for you.
    My favorite line in this post: “I think about what I want my children to remember about me if this is my last day.” It was pretty convicting for me. We’ve had a very demanding few weeks.
    Blessings, Sister.

  3. Erin, I was so touched reading your “Five Minute Friday.” What a way you have with words. I am SO proud of you! I remember you as a beautiful, vivacious young girl who would take the time to come to the elem. library to see me and tell me what was going on at the high school.
    Mother of 5 sons – What a challenge and great joy!! (I had 3 sons). Sounds like you and Kerry are raising those boys to become Christian young men who will make a real difference in this world. Thanks!
    Your “old” librarian, Joan Nikkel

    1. Oh Mrs Nickkel! I have spoken of you often with my boys. I’ve told them how special you always made me feel and how you used to let me go back in the stacks to find books before I was “old enough”. My oldest son is an avid reader like I was so I’ve thought too about the books you suggested I read when I was his age. Yes, 5 boys and they keep us very busy but we are so blessed with each one of them!

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