Very little of what I’m thinking and feelings seems like it can be put into a cohesive thought today. I find myself oscillating between grief and joy, fear and peace, being “okay” and crumbling in despair. I can’t quite make sense of it all and instead I’ve scribbled one liner thoughts today. I want to flesh them out a bit and make them make sense. To explore them and find out where they go in my mind. So instead, I’ll share some of the verses I’ve been reading and meditating on the last few days.
Psalm 18 : 30-31
30 As for God, His way is blameless;
The word of the Lord is tried;
He is a shield to all who take refuge in Him.
31 For who is God, but the Lord?
And who is a rock, except our God.
5 But I have trusted in Your lovingkindness;
My heart shall rejoice in Your salvation.
6 I will sing to the Lord,
Because He has dealt bountifully with me.
19 Remember my affliction and my wandering, the wormwood and bitterness.
20 Surely my soul remembers
And is bowed down within me.
21 This I recall to my mind,
Therefore I have hope.
22 The Lord’s lovingkindnesses indeed never cease,
For His compassions never fail.
23 They are new every morning;
Great is Your faithfulness.
24 “The Lord is my portion,” says my soul,
“Therefore I have hope in Him.”
25 The Lord is good to those who wait for Him,
To the person who seeks Him.
26 It is good that he waits silently
For the salvation of the Lord.
31 For the Lord will not reject forever,
32 For if He causes grief,
Then He will have compassion
According to His abundant lovingkindness.
33 For He does not afflict [j]willingly
Or grieve the sons of men.
34 To crush under His feet
All the prisoners of the land,
35 To deprive a man of justice
In the presence of the Most High,
36 To defraud a man in his lawsuit—
Of these things the Lord does not approve.
37 Who is there who speaks and it comes to pass,
Unless the Lord has commanded it?
38 Is it not from the mouth of the Most High
That both good and ill go forth?
Philippians 4: 6-9
6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. 7 And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
8 Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things. 9 The things you have learned and received and heard and seen in me, practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.
Please continue to pray for our precious daughter Lillian. That she will live to be born at term (in November) with a healthy heart.
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Dearest Erin, Wonderful Scriptures! I was wondering last night what to read from the Word to help me too. Since you first shared your diagnosis of Lillian, I’ve had the story of Jarius and his daughter in my mind. I read from Mark 5:21-43. Jairus pleads – “Please come and place your hands on her; heal her so she can live.” Jesus went with him and later after she had “fallen asleep” He said, “Don’t be afraid. Just trust me.” Later to the daughter, “Get up, little girl!”
What a story! I will pray continuously for your little girl and you, claiming that one percent. Love you. MOM